tolak kerja.

this PHENOMENON is everywhere.
recently it happened to me and the worse thing about it is: i am the one who tolak kerja to another person.

there was this meeting that i have to attend short noticed. i came to have knowledge about it at 7.30am and it was scheduled to be at 2.30pm. Since it was an order from boss, so i decided to start the day by:
1. finishing yesterday's work, then
2. meet boss for approval of yesterday's work, then
3. start to prepare for that meeting (read through the file etc.).

task 1 and 2 completed by 9am.

so i started to do task 3. but seriously i was not feeling very well from last night but i came to office anyway just so dat i can complete task 1 and 2. when i met boss that morning, i planned to ask him to let me go for half day since i was not well. but before i could say that he started to shower me with "do this, say that and don't mention this or that in meeting petang ni yer" so i have no choice.

ku gagahkan jua diri ini utk membaca fail tebal ni. walaubagaimanapun, at 9.20am i failed. i felt so weak..all my bones were shaking and my joints aching. i was so dizzy and my temperature was rising. so i said to my colleague that i am bringing this file home to read it then i'll go straight to putrajaya (for that meeting, it was in putrajaya).

so i arrived home. but what i did was only lying helplessly in my bed and cover myself up with thick blanket.at the same time, i tried to read the file anyway.
at 11am. i gave up. i called my colleague, i asked her if she could find me somebody to take over this file, i really can't take it.

there was nadiah. she was my saviour. she said yes.alhamdulillah. but i felt so stupid for bringing home the file..now i have to send it back to office..alahai..

no choice!..so i drove back to office.send the file to nadiah. then i said to her, thanks very much..plis give me some of your files, i'll do it for u..she said, it's oke.

n today, when i received two of her files, my conscience is clear n i am relieved. i'll do that for you nadiah because i owe u that much.
(conscience's clear but i'm sure that in the mind of my boss, mazuin tolak kerja!)