bukan semua orang faham..kan?

di kala menunggu transfer order wan dimuktamadkan oleh superior dia, my facebook's status(es) have been reflecting how i feel about it..
here are my status(es):

Mohamad Izwan's faith is in the hand of his bosses..we r feeling so hopeless not knowing where he will be posted for the nex few years..ya Allah hai..takotnye.!! please la post dia kat lembah klang je..plis..plis..plis..plis..

and:

a very very good news from her puts a very very big smile on my face...:-)... now i'm really hoping to hear one from Mohamad Izwan ~huhuhu..takott (-__-)

and:

pnat la nk tunggu..mls da nk fikir..

and:
bila da confirm my status goes like this:

heheheheheheheheheheeehheheheheheee..i'm so happy (yet so frustrated!)

(frustrated tu sbb pd hari yang sama sasha kesayanganku telah dicalarkan oleh motor polis yang nk menyelit2 antara kereta di waktu jammed tp rupanye tak muat, sasha is my car)

jd, isu yang timbul adalah apabila aku asik ulang perkataan "takotnye" berkali2 sama ada dalam status or comment..
bila perkataan "takot" tu asik diulang2, adala pulak komen dr kwn2 aku yang tak fhm kenapa aku ni takot na if wan kene transfer jauh2..n bila da tau wan kene transfer ke mana, bila aku happy, dia komen lagi.."haa skrg awin tak takot lg sbb wan is around" cmtu lah..
hmm..jadi, persoalannya, kenapa aku takot? kenapa aku takot sgt??

well, sebenarnya, jawapan utk persoalan yg mcm tu sememangnya terlalu/teramat susah utk diluahkan atau ditulis atau di explain..the answer can only be felt by one who has been or is still in the same situation..or the one who is loved by and who is in love with somebody.hmm..kan dah kate, susah nk explain!
tp ade jugak komen2 yg seakan-akan/kelihatan seperti faham keadaan aku. in such a case, bagus lah. tp yg tak faham tu susah la sket.sbb bukan tanak explain. tp tak tau nk explain cmne. fhm x?