alamak!

dear baby,

mummy so stressed out. mummy tried to give advice to her. but she didn't get it..or she got it wrongly..or she misinterpreted mummy. and mummy is so stressed out because of that. stress is not good for u. mummy so sorry dearest baby *sigh*

what should mummy do as a next step? ntah la.. mummy believes that mummy is obliged to never let go of this matter. she is mummy's baby sister. and mummy failed to make her see mummy's point. but somehow, she kinda ask mummy to back off.

maybe mummy should back off, don't u think? but time is running out. she has only 1 or 2 semesters left before her chance grows slimmer and slimmer. sbb selepas ni, maintain cgpa je boleh, lompat cgpa susah dah. never once mummy regards her as tak pandai mcm mummy or other dear sisters. kalau tak pandai tak la masuk universiti kan? tp dia ingat mummy cakap dia tak pandai mcm mummy.! dia ingat mummy pandai sgt ke masa zaman universiti dulu? hahahaha..baby dgr tu ye, nnti ur turn will come pulak, belajar pandai2, bley jadik profesional. mummy just risau dia tak anggap fokus pada study tu sebagai priority nombor 1.

pastu daddy ingatkan mummy yg lupa nak kasitau dia. kalau cgpa 3.5 masa grad nanti, dpt biasiswa. jpa ke, petronas ke..mana2 lah. murah rezeki. duit free! hati senang, nenek and atuk pun hati senang. kalau takdpt 3.5, biasiswa takde la. tp takpe jugak. ptptn masih boleh amik. tp ptptn bukan duit free la,..ptptn diploma da rm15000, campur lg rm15000 ptptn degree, dah rm30000. kena baya masa da stat keje nnti. hmm.. banyak tu.! nnti da stat keje nak bli kereta lagi, nak kawen lagi..

well, all that have been said, maybe mummy should back off. and instead mummy should only focus on u and daddy,. after all both of u are my everything. so, i should start making the list a.s.a.p...yupp, ur list..so we can prepare the budget, and when the time comes, i can go shopping for u. u r coming sooner than u think u know? :).. can't wait to see how abg rayyan will react when he sees u.!

see, thinking of u makes me happy and stress-free. ur aunt is a big girl. i've said everything that is needed to be said, and it is up to her to colour her own path. i will never stop to doa for her. and hope that she'll come to me if she has any concern,. amin ya allah.!

i love u baby, please do not stop kicking me, move around more oke.? i love it very much, daddy loves that very much too.. he can also feel u when he touches mummy's belly when u dance :)..for now, that is the only way that u can communicate to us..eihh semoga cepat masa berlalu..mummy nak sgt jumpa baby!

love,

mummy.

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